This poem has come with you

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Some poems come to me so easily and fast 
Some take their time, I have to court them for several days or months 
some have fights with my soul - I cannot control
They hold a tight grip to my inside and I have to really convince myself to let them out
For they are pure and true to a world that doesn’t care
You see poets – poets are some mad and crazy humans
We let our souls run naked for the world to see
So am here to let you know
That this poem - This poem has come with you

No pain no gain but this train is too long for a refrain
Believe me for a while I forgot how to breathe
For the rain was plain – the nights were mean
Tears were sweet and pain, pain hurt no more
I had become so calloused by it, that every tender touch I gave 
Could not only bruise but it could break bones too
Love had become the devil
The closer it came the faster I ran - to the church cast it out! Please Lord Jesus! Cast it out
Bit by bit turning dark
Believe me  I have had to search so deep – to let go of fear
Face my demons and stand here
am here to let you know
That this poem - This poem has come with you

Yes this poem has come with you
Burning the pain of my past as if every step had to be taken to get to you
As if my spirit was on a quest
A quest to your heart - 
And damn I don’t even know you…
So I am constantly telling myself – breathe Matsi
step by step 
But lord Jesus how fast I am falling
It’s a wonder how am finding pieces of myself as I drown to you
Am sinking and hoping that you will just catch me
I am known to fall so hard – am fragile and easy to break
Whats that all about
I thought that you should you know
This poem - This poem came with you

He comes with eyes that see right into my soul
Oh my God –
I think his smile makes the angels drop – Jesus Lord
If he is a temple I am down on my knees
I applaud
Must plant him in my soul 
Oh god please forgive my blasphemy
And my hearts insanity
But when he walks into the room – I become some foolish tragedy
So I am here standing with a crazy beating heart
And  there you are –  sinking slowly in my soul – my focus on you
How did you get here!
Royalty put on your crown – approach my iron throne with no fear
For I swear it is yours to rule
Fear not my two furry dragons – if you are kind to you even when you mean to me
And I want to tell you so bad – how I have waited for you!
N I know many girls will be wanting you – but am the only one for you
Then your eyes meet mine – oh my god
And you walk my way… Jesus Lord
Like some answer coming to a prayer – I applaud
Forgive my blasphemy and my hearts insanity
But when he walks into the room – I become some foolish tragedy
So I am here standing with a crazy beating heart
And  there you are –  sinking slowly in my soul – my focus on you
How did you get here!
I thought that you should you know
This poem - This poem came with you

Hapa…. Tunacheza na maneno
Ngeli ni yako wewe
Unanguvu ajab, wanimaliza faham
Nguvu ajab, nimezimia mwenzangu
Kichizi boo… kichizi niamini

Wanimaliza huachi hata


© Namatsi Lukoye

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