Namatsi - Hisia Ni Zangu

The gods have decided to blow me away They have blocked all the light rays All I can do is remain in this fray Rest my soul, let’s not make a scene Tomorrows mercies shall carry us home © Namatsi Lukoye

The last tear just fell from my eyes Not because people at funerals get to laugh too But because I am done with mourning And I feel the hairs on my bald scalp sprouting up So I know that I got it in me to live past this Like a woman recovering from Cancer, I cannot hide my joy The last tear just fell from my eyes This is me smiling, as if the storm never wash away my house This is me laughing, as if I know where I will sleep tonight I am still breathing, I figure I feel that divine comfort that comes with grace Deep within this very heart, I feel his embrace In my confusion, with all my questions I at least I never forgot where to run to The last tear just fell from my eyes I stopped dancing to war songs, blood shouldn’t inspire me I stopped dancing and playing with knives, pills and poison Upon killer winds and waves In wilderness and when when hope runs away When all I see if fear Lord, you have walked with me I know people like me are not fair to you Bending

I killed a man I ripped out his heart and tossed it in the flames For the lies he fed me I killed a man I dried up his spirit For the tears he stole every night I killed a man I walked away with his soul For the monster he turned me into I figured Why should he breathe, while my corpse roams the world? I loved him with all my heart I guess hate is a kiss away when the heart breaks © Namatsi Lukoye